BEMINE.

2009-05-27T01:04:00.001+08:00

gained a lil height.

lost a lil weight.

life?

2007-02-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

so i say,

FORGET IT.

angels or devils

This is the last time

That I'm ever gonna come here tonight

This is the last time - I will fall

Into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you

I can see the love in you

But fighting all the demons will take time

It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us

Are we ever

Are we ever gonna learn to fly

The devils they burn inside of us

Are we ever gonna come back down

Come around

I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold.

<s>youdontdesrvemylove.

goodbye my lover,goodbye max.

2007-02-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

; says:

its like at least you face whatever you're feeling, no matter how crappy the feeling may be. but for him, avoiding the whole issue completely is an act of cowardice.

cause we dont have a start to end with

,love~~max~~.

2007-01-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

SHIFTED!

ask me about it and ill tell you the new url.

=)))

2007-01-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

when the retards unite.HEH.

gave school a miss today.
i do need a break from everything,really.

dear me,
PLEASE MUG. .

2007-01-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

the vocal consort- a musical journey.
thats DA sex gang and olivia for you.
wheee.tsk argh school =//

2007-01-27T19:08:00.000+08:00

great,im sick.AGAIN.

fever,sore throat,cough blahs.

you name it,i have it =)

dejiang: yes yes arent you slacking STILL?

zidan: AHHH babe.i doubt im coming down tom already =(

davis: yes davis.ill try to myg.cant seem to get started though.

bry: yes bry you naggy old shitt.HEH.kidding.

jill: ahh yes yes ill eat at home more often.YIPPE SOPS OUTING TOM!!

and i wonder why must i always fall sick on weekends?tsk.

2007-01-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

goddd,

lost my voice.

sound like a man now.

and i reckon i aint gonna be bothered by e comments anymore.im just too tired to defend myself. my silence is shall be my self defence.

2007-01-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

to all those who have been bitching about me,

GET A LIFE.

seriously.if theres any unhappiness or whatever say it in my face.or else,~~fuckoff~~.oh and yes,if my blog entries displease you.just click that [X] on the top right corner yeah.

im just so sick of this.

2007-01-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

song without words's driving me nuts.

all we do is DODODODODODO.

and im going cuckoo.

irritating please.argh.

oh and

法客油!

heh.new word learnt today.

its all nothing but just a facade.

god knows how long im gonna take to heal this time.

2007-01-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

ahh,great.

as the bridegroom to his chosen's stuck in my head now.

just like how im addicted to bejeweled on msn.

okays i know,no link.

and i cannot believe my stupidity,

in letting you to hurt me.

AGAIN.

bangs head,slaps self.

~~justgetoutofmylifewontyou.~~

2007-01-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

it can never be worse than today.

argh mind games.alrights,i admit defeat.

ive lost,right when i saw you sitting there in the canteen.

oh and yes, ~~you~~.

i thought you've left me for good.

now that you're back,god knows whats gonna happen next.

greattt.argh.and i reckon you're just another jerk.

ill be fine.

2007-01-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

cause we dont have a start to end with,love.

2007-01-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

WHEEE!

retail therapy really does wonders doesnt it?

im a happy kid.REALLY xD

the night's too long and cold here

without you

I grieve in my condition

for I cannot find the strength to say I need you so

oh and every time I'm close to you

there's too much I can't say

and you just walk away

and I forgot to tell you

I love you，~~sweets.~~

唉算了，

就说我们有缘无份吧。

2007-01-20T16:56:00.000+08:00

to everything turn turn turn.

there is a season to TURN TURN TURN.

AHHAAA.i swear if tpjchoir's singing this version.

ill quit,for sure.

oh and no offence,

i always thought suria was an ~~indian~~ channel.

i mean,priya suria,suria priya.

dont they sound the same?

siti: AHHA yes! MORE TO COME! ahah.whee lets have bubble tea turn turn turn.HA.

louis: yes louis i wil be happy =) and god why u like up so early eh?nuts.

terry: ahah okay LOR dejiang.

jillian: ayes yes jill.BUT.that jia min stil aint replying me! angry can.pffts.

2007-01-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

失望。

旧情人真不能成为朋友吗？

真是的。tsk.

yesterday is a wrinkle on my forehead//aramis* says:
for sch i use nivea/dove. sometimes addidas
yesterday is a wrinkle on my forehead//aramis* says:
special occasions i use
yesterday is a wrinkle on my forehead//aramis* says:
mont blanc
yesterday is a wrinkle on my forehead//aramis* says:
or ck ONE
yesterday is a wrinkle on my forehead//aramis* says:
so i smell nice!

AHAH ADRIEL.FAINTS.

a happy kid,

i shall be,i must be.

2007-01-18T15:43:00.000+08:00

after all these that had been going on,
i reckon im getting all numb.
ive shed enough of tears over these months,a little too much i must say.ive tried hard and i fell hard.and yes,im getting tired and all.cause one thing for sure,i suck at such mind games.
i dont deserve this,at all.

and definately not from you.

enough said.
ive made my mind.

just so you know.

2007-01-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

I thought it was over, baby

We said our goodbyes

But I can't go a day without your face

Goin' through my mind

In fact, not a single minute

Passes without you in it

Your voice, your touch, memories of your love

Are with me all of the time

Let me let go, baby

Let me let go

If this is for the best

Why are you still in my heart

Are you still in my soul

Let me let go

I talked to you the other day

Looks like you make your escape

You put us behind, no matter how I try

I can't do the same

Let me let go, baby

Let me let go

It just isn't right

I've been two thousand miles

Down a dead-end road

Let me let go, darlin', won't you

I just gotta know, yeah

If this is for the best

Why are you still in my heart

Are you still in my soul

Let me let go

2007-01-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

GREAT!

now that choir's so huge with the new juniors,

im looking forward to choir pracs!.

WHEES! ahha.louis louis! =D

and I have the sense to recognize that

I don't know how to let you go

every moment marked

with apparitions of your soul

I'm ever swiftly moving

trying to escape this desire

the yearning to be near you

I do what I have to do

the yearning to be near you

I do what I have to do

ayes,what a depressing song.tsk.

2007-01-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

first came the fever,next came THE stomache.

omg the pain that almost got me lying flat by the roadside.

im dying, ~~greeeat~~.

whats next?

and i reckon you dont even give me a damn,do you?

2007-01-15T00:24:00.000+08:00

and i always thought i was those fall fast fall hard kind of person.

i fell hard this time,

a little too hard.

So tell me how you feel

Are you for real

Do you still think of me

Baby still

Do you dream of me at night

Oh let me tell you how it feels

Wish i was dreaming but its real

Let me tell you how it feels

I think that I will never love again.

2007-01-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

AHHH.

fancy catching a fever on the SECOND week of school.

what a bad start eh?

and i hope it aint gonna be ~~dengue~~.

2007-01-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

AHHH.FOUR MORE TO GO.

argh go joanne go! i can do it!

and i reckon im gonna change my tag board.

after tom,when im done with all those reading logs.

school's a bore,

what a chore.

BAH.

you know how much you mean to me,no?

2007-01-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Let it go, let it be

Don't waste all your emotion on this tit-for-tat machine

Let it go, let it be

Don't go wasting your emotions

No one wins if we keep score

Let it go, let it be

Let it go

and yes,

many loves to all who tagged =)

<3!

2007-01-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

In every heart there is a room,
a sanctuary safe and strong.
To heal the wounds from lovers past,
until a new one comes along.

And so it goes,and so it goes,
and you're the only who knows.

~~i love you.and i reckon i sitl do.~~

2007-01-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

and this blackbeard for you! =D
except for that tsk ~~maameemooo~~.heh

and finally ive got my ~~wig~~ hair snipped.
omg.and ive got all my partings screwed.damn it.
ahh crap.TWENTY THREE READING LOGS.
I CAN DO IT! yea right.

2007-01-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

tpjc orientation'07,

BLACKBEARD YO!

great night.it was hell of an experience.

it felt very much like the good old abba days =)

ahh many loves to all ogls and ogms that made tonight such an awesome one!

'yo ho ho, im a pirate in the sea!WHOO!'

more pictures coming up!.

and yes,i stil do have my voice =D

2007-01-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

siti: ALOHA! eh i hope u had fun yeah!.GO BLACKBEARD! =D heh.

xiaojun: ahh.eh visit here often,ill post more pics up yeah.

terry: yeah we all know.school sucks.anyways.see you at detention!

jillian: AHHAA OKAYS! flags tsk.nothing special.ive got fruits and vegetables okays! HEE.

anon: hey thanks for dropping by yeah.ill do a reflection and i reckon you should do one on yourself too.

ahh,a hate tagger,like finally.

WHATEVER.

pot calling the kettle black.tsk.

2007-01-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

alrights,another random one.

ahh dead tired.
GO BLACKBEARD!
WHEEE=D

2007-01-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

*screams*

school's starting!!!.

and ive got 23 reading logs,1 compre,3 essay outlines,14 weeks of vocab,1 lump of econs and N maths questions YET to be done.

see,thats how screwed i am for school.

AHA! its time to ogle at guys! =D

okays,thats if there's any.

ahh come on,i need to level up.

get it over,time's running out.

2007-01-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

ahhh,my loves!

heh.they are the ones who spur me on,cheer me up,slap me down.and i love them all every much the same =)

他们总说,

旧的不去新的不来，不？

2007-01-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

新的一年，新的开始。

2006 just had too many heartbreaks,

a little too many infact.then again,

I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,

I'm grateful, for everytime,

Some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were lessons learned.

and all the things that break you,

are the things that make you strong =)

andimthankfulihadyou.

2007-01-01T05:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

countdown was definately one of e best.
except for that painful wait for argh cabs.
had hell lotsa fun.doing really stupid embarrassing acts,laughing mad.ask me about it and i reckon you wont wanna acknowledge me if you're there.thank god it was all dark over at vt.
ahhh and yes, the fireworks never failed to make me go wheee!

~~everything was pretty much the same,the crowd ,the atmosphere..except one,youwerenolongertherewithme.~~

oh and yes,my new year resolution,
to get a boyfriend who drives!
AHH YES.THATS IT.

embrace the truth and move on.

2006-12-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

青少儿广播演艺组之

禄野仙踪

=) love it.

godd, can i choose not to do a reflection for 2006?.cause it sure sucked balls.okay,maybe im just exaggerating stuff over here.bahh whatever.ill do it tomorrow or something.im just too tired to do anything.

LET IT GO.

its no longer about making choices now,

~~ive got no choice.just gotta do it.~~

and i just cant wait for 2007.

2006-12-29T11:59:00.000+08:00

该上战场了，

冲啊！

one down,two more to go.

天啊，就快累死了。

jillian: omg jill nonsense pleasse! i dont! i bet you did right.tsk tsk.

zidan: aloha babe.CAN I CHOOSE NOT TO DO IT PLEASEE?or after the performance yeah.

juls: JULS! I MISS YOU BABE! hah.i promise ill come the very next choir prac! many loves =D

~~drop that idea and move on,dumb dumb.~~

henolongerfeelthesame,foryou.

2006-12-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

and all i want for christmas is you.

siti: ahah siti.ill see you tom den,i think =)

zidan: WHEEE see you tom babe! whee ahha.

fiona: ahha yeah kinda of.my dad looks like one too.except for that balding head.heh

jill: aha jill thats a uber tag please.yes i know.CARE AND SHARE RIGHT.

rui: eh what.aint i right? you are happy what.arent you?tsk.ha.

2006-12-25T01:59:00.000+08:00

Deck the halls with boughs of holly,

falalalala, lalalala.

Tis the season to be jolly,

falalalala, lalalala.

WHEEE!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

great night, great company.

and i thank god for having you guys in my life.

i love you all! =D

2006-12-23T12:05:00.000+08:00

WHEE!

I LOVE MY DADDY!

omg.ahahah.wheee.hehheh.

okays,so he got me.

a digi cam! like FINALLY.

a pair of sneakers! i like.

and many other random stuff.

nail clipper,mirror,shirts and blahs.

alrights.today's a good start.

joanne's a happy kid!

let's hope i wont get screwed at drama.

*crosses fingers*

2006-12-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

=)))

and it felt so much like the good old times.

rahhh.then again, the past should remain as the past,

~~no?~~

WHEE DADDY'S COMING HOME LATERS!

PRESENTS YAY!

siti: ahah yeah.i look like a pandan cake when i squat please.

nick: eh what funny.its nice can.DAMN NICE LAH.tsk.its wizard of oz what.

terry: eh stupid dejiang.i said DONT laugh already right.tsk.

jillian: AHHA.omg what sticky girl.u are e sticky one now please.EAT MORE LAH.

2006-12-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

eeeks.

wet games was totally gross today.

hell,ive got mud,flour,egg,chili,ketchup all of me.

and yes im suspecting that i stil smell like an egg,

depite ~~bathing~~ scrubbing myself TWICE.

alrights people DONT laugh.

here's a sneak preview of my costume for e musical.

What hurts the most, was being so close

And having so much to say

And watchin you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seein that lovin you

Is what i was tryin to do.

2006-12-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

笨笨

~~its all over.~~

是她和他，

不是你和他。

WAKE UP.

oh and picture of e day =)

2006-12-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

终于，

知道什么是失恋了。

不，不是说我们真的谈过，

只是领悟到那思念与苦。

就一首歌，就那么一首，

泪，回忆，什么一切都回来了。

还till the end不？

SAVE ME.

2006-12-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

im beginning to doubt everyone around me.

thats bad,really bad.

someone wake me up.

a busy week ahead.

we'll have fun,i hope.

2006-12-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

i swear its been a long time since ive felt so fucked up.

with so many commitments on my hand now,

for once, i wished ive left drama.

dad's off to japan for work.

and i just had a tiff with mum.

~~great~~.

oh on a lighter note,

i had very much fun out with that 龙姿丹 today.

eh babe lets go raid zara sales next time yeah?

many many loves =)

2006-12-16T01:55:00.000+08:00

dead tired.

sco was fun but hell,my legs almost gave way.

and thank god, drama's cancelled.

WHEEE.

a rest day, finally.

ps: anyone's kind enough to get me a usb cable for my dearest nokia7373 for christmas?omg.pitypitypleaseee.

2006-12-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

I’ll never understand what ever happened to us
Love was like some other sun always shining above
And all the rain came crashing down
And I can't turn this around
Without you

damn the ~~period~~.

2006-12-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

after all these had happened,

i reckon eveything's very much back to the square one.

except one.

they all say friends come and go,

but hell,shes one friend that i dont wish to go.no wait,~~drift~~.

i just felt that you're no longer there for me.

yeah whatever.we all know it takes two hands to clap.

im sorry.

2006-12-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

一个字，

闷。

就快发慌了，就快了。

2006-12-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

got the new phone,

time to move on.

sentosa was great today.

drunk hell lotsa sea water.

and yes,my face's as red as a baboon ~~ass~~.

then again,who said it was ever easy to let go eh?

siti: aha im a total gonecase please.i give up.

ssk: no sengkeat please.go do it somewhere.

terry: eeeks! another one.tsk.go away.

lins: AHHA LAOCHEN!!! omg.haha just 0.5kg.but i think i gain back le lah.nah im stil complaining that im fat =)

lynette: ahah yeah lyn!.hah i love your drawings too please.

jin yong: AHHA JIN YONG YOU!.omg how i add you eh? you add me bah. joanne_lim_89@hotmail.com TSK.have you been practising your lines eh?

2006-12-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

get me a life.

give me a life.

before i really go nuts from all the singing and rehearsals.

oh and whatever the case it is, im thankful that we are back talking.and thats all im gonna ask

for =)

siti: AHAH SITI hi.youuu.omg.can i choose not to do my gp?

amie: OMG HI AMIE! hugs.you are such a sweetie pie! thanks babe!

ssk: ahah whatever to you sengkeat.

dejiang: ahah yeah he has.the ROCK ON clan -.-

2006-12-09T14:08:00.000+08:00

omg.

keep your mouths sealed if you dont know me.

dont get me started,i mean really,

dont.

yeah,damn all politics.

oh on a lighter note,

IVE LOST WEIGHT!

RAHH. IM A FIGHTER!

i can do this,i gotta do it.

2006-12-09T02:07:00.000+08:00

my room's in a mess,

and my life's in a bigger mess.

dum fata sinunt,iungamus amores

if fate allows, let's join in love.

get me a new phone.

i need to move on.

2006-12-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

met up with my dearest poovan once again,

man it was freaking hilarious to hear her talk about her encounter with that monster.

omg.i mean you can lie about anything but never about your looks please.

omg.i hope he burns in hell please.

so much so cheating my darling's feelings.

OLIVIA LOVES!

bahh i hope she had fun at the surprise party.

omg dejiang!
ahh yes acting cute,as usual.

and georgey.
yeah i was his angel for that night.

somethings i wonder how thick skinneed some people can get.

自知之明
please.

alrightys,replies to tag.

siti: WHEEE.okays.i dont know why am i replying you here while im chatting to you online now.alrights.anyways.THANKS FOR THE 22 ARTICLES YEAH.loves!
nick: erm i dont actually know get what you mean yeah.drop me a cal or something to tell me more about it?
weiling: AHAHAH big ling stil as cuckoo as always.anyways.WHEN YOU GONNA BE FREE.catch up soon no?
poovan: omg darling ar.i love you please.and YES! your birthday's coming!
max: erm yeah you too.take care of urself.you'll be missed <3
syafs: you are?anyways.thanks for the concern yeah.then again,erm.we never did got together yeah.

2006-12-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

hello people,

im back.

and i had my fair share of fun and all.

the last night was great.

went crazy and all.

oh wells,at least it kept my mind off certain issues.

tpjCHOIR

you taught me love,

2006-12-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

Everything's falling,

and I am included in that

Oh, how I try to be just okay

Yeah, but all I ever really wanted

Was a little piece of you.

cause its you im gonna miss.

malacca trip tom and its ZERO excitement please.

oh wells,im just gonna hope everything's gonna go well.

take care all.

~~anemotionalturmoilfilledwithupanddowns,tearsandwahtevernots.butistilloveyouverymuchthesame.ithink.~~

~~itssixmonths,love.~~

2006-12-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

rahh.im gonna chuck away my homework,for now.

im tired.from all the whatever shits been happening.

i reckon no one will fully understand,not even that 3rdaug-long-lost-childcare-mate of mine.i mean i dont really get it either.they all say to move on.they all say i can find much better.they all say its all not worth it.they all say follow my heart.but at the end of the day,its all gonna contradict,no?

omg.im spouting nonsense again.

just end my misery.

AHH HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNETTE!

i love you darling!

2006-12-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

my head says yes.

while my heart says no.

honestly,i think ill be better off dead.

i can wait for '07 to arrive,seriously.

2006 ~~sucked balls~~

2006-12-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you

Like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

Now that you're gone

Instead of moving on,

I refuse to see

And I keep coming back

And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

I try to fight it

Can't deny it

You don't even know

That I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you

Like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

i dont know when will this be put to an end.

~~or maybe it will never be.~~
but then again,

if you're happy this way,

im gonna be happy for you.

give more give more,expect less expect less.

2006-12-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

and today im a tired ~~bitch~~.
i cant count the number of times ive walked up and down orchard.omg and i swear my legs almost gave way.thank god for the break at gelare.

nevertheless i had hell lotsa fun with the girls!
it was great catching up with poovan,islin and juliana.man i do miss that darling of my!and omg.and yes,i embarrassed myself a little too many times today.ask me about it and i reckon it will send you laughing at my er blur-ness and erm stupidity.

caught casino royale with that long-lost-childcare-mate.
ooooh and it was disappointing.oh wells,

and yes,i DO need to get a tan.
i look like a white ~~chicken~~,seriously.

lala pictures up soon!

2006-11-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to these rules

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

Im sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

omg and did i say i do ~~not~~ deserve anyone?

argh.bangs head, slap self.

cause it's you i miss,~~sweets~~

2006-11-29T23:43:00.000+08:00

with the performance in exactly one month away,
everyone's getting stressed up and all.
even the teachers and directors are.
its inevitable.
i cant help it by feeling guilty for not putting my all.
then again,i wil be back on form SOON ~~i hope~~.

每当我们挨骂时，
我们往往只将事情看在表面。
认为所有的事都在针对自己，
但是实事往往并非如此。

babe,if you're reading this and stil fuming,please chill alrights.
lets all work hard and put up a good show!
we can do it! =D

AND IKEA'S GONNA OPEN TOM!.
time for meatballs again!any takers?
er okay that was random.

and yes! tom's gonna be a catching up day!.
im getting all excited already! -.-

omg.this is a nonsensical post.RAHHH.
whateverr.

2006-11-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

No point in talking what you should have been

And regretting the things that went on

Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate

Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me

And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

ooh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIRY!

i thank god that ive got with me since those days back in abba39.as cliche as it gonna sound,im glad you've gone through thick and thin with me.god knows what will i be now without your rantings and scoldings.they never failed to make me 'enlighten' me in one way or other.give more and expect less.ill remember that for life dude.

I LOVE YOU HAIRY!

and you better be SMILING when reading this now alrights.

2006-11-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

choir choir choir

drama drama drama.

how no life can my holidays get?

not to mention the amount of homework undone.

and those lines that has yet gone into my head.

yes,im pretty much screwed.

there's nothing much to look forward to anymore.not even the malacca trip is able to make me the least excited.omg.whats wrong with me?alrights,maybe i shall just look forward to catching up with that long lost childcare mate of mine.

~~yet another heartbreak.~~

i need a wake up call,seriously.

2006-11-27T10:57:00.000+08:00

nothing beats a hairy wake up call.

thanks dude.

you are just a passer by in my life,

someone who doesnt deserve to be remembered.

im a fighter!.

RAHH

2006-11-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

Time, time heals,

The wounds that you feel,

Somehow, right now.

and yes, i do ~~not~~ deserve anyone.

2006-11-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

once again,

i tore my heart open,just to feel.

水难之灾。

that is 泪水的水

as much as ive anticipated this,

i just cant stop weeping in self-pity,mocking at my own stupidity

accepting the fact that,

~~you are just not that into me.~~

2006-11-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

i feel god damn lousy now that i think i should just kill myself.
no wait,i should get hairy that ass to do it.
~~some stuff i wished ive never said.~~
im sorry baby.

2006-11-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

the lovelies of s32!

maaameeemooo
and bry
oooh and i love shiya!

2006-11-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

ahhh.i am tired.
oooh.i got a little tan-ner today!
argh.drama's getting all stressed.
heh.today was fun! camwhored and did whatever nots.
WHEEEE DINNER TOM WITH XUAN AN THAT ~~CUCKOO~~!

pictures up real soon! =D

and yes people who wont reply my smses esp people like YOU, deserve to burn in hell =)

2006-11-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

STEP UP was alright though,apart from that two-rows-infront-of-the-big-barbaric-screen-seats.typical storyline but god damn nice dance steps pleaseeee..omg.anywayss.

amie: AYES GOT JULS!! AND LYN!!! hmmm.aiyo we gonna miss your company pleasee.
shanjoo:omg shan that was damn random please.aha i miss you babe.WHENS E NEXT s24 OUTING EH?
hazel: eh chanting sessions are on sats 9.15 at siglap.yupyup.YOU WANA JOIN US ?=D heh
jillian: OMG EIGHT?!?!? wth i only have FOUR can.ahh whatever.im happy with where i am =)

2006-11-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,

I guess I'm gonna have to cry,

And let go of some things I've loved,

To get to the other side,

I guess it's gonna bring me down,

The only way you try to find,

Moving on with the rest of your life,

Starts with goodbye.

type type type,

backspace backspace backspace.

okay,so thats what ive been doing for the past fifteen minutes.

theres too much to say yet i just cant seem find the correct words to pen down my thoughts.no or rather its just feels erm weird to just rant.cause one thing for sure,i ~~aint~~ got balls made of metal.

and tonight,

ill be more glad if you could just stab me right in my heart.

really.

so baby,wheres your heart then?

2006-11-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

ahaha.
retail therapy never fails to cheer me up.
WHEEEEE.im a happy kid tonight.

and omg.despite the hols.
i am stressed.
yes stressed.
argh those phys teachers who came out with those online questions.argh.goddamnit.

2006-11-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

argh.tonight's a total bitch.
whatever to you.
sometimes sorry no longer means anything.

be a bitch to me,and ill be a bigger bitch to you.
so dont mess with me baby.

2006-11-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

以我来看，
荡秋圈有如生命，
有高有低，有高潮也有低潮。
唯一不同的是，
秋圈的起伏是在我们的掌控之中，
唉，有时还真想生命就如如此。
但这下子生命也太没意义了不？

2006-11-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

and tonight,
you left me speechless.
for once, i dont know how to reply nor to face you.
ive always treated you as a big brother of mine.
and its all gonna remain as what it is.
im sorry bro.ive always thought it was mutual.
i guess its time for us to move on.

2006-11-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

they always say absence makes the heart fonder..

we shall see then.

and yes holidays are such a bore,seriously.

especially when you are like broke to go out and that choir's often getting on your nerves these days.PLUS that er ~~hill~~ mountain of holiday assignments to be done.omg.i do need a job.but then again who will employ someone who aint free on tues,fri,sat nor suns? ahhh

er anyone need chinese tuition?

or hmm piano lessons?

terry: ahuh er yeah.and shit i forgot about the kicking ass thing.

kelly: HEY BABE! have more confidence in yourself yeah.you'll make it :)

jillian: ahaha omg NONONONO.enthu my ass pleasee.ahah yeah.i am fine.yupyups and please dont stress yourself too much yeah.ill do my best! I PROMISE!

2006-11-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

不知怎么了，

今晚我选择了逃避。

选择了放弃那机会。

还真不知怎么了。

~~是惭愧还是后悔？~~

i want your heart to bleed,

that's all im asking for.

2006-11-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

ah F&^@%$*@&#@^%! it.
whatever.im god damn pissed now.
whatever.im not gonna organise any class outings anymore.its blooody hell irritating when we cant get at least more than half the class attending just ONE class outing.and yes,hell to those who agreed back then and backed out now.
whatever.please fast forward to like 3rdaug2007 like NOW.

dejiang: oh whatever lah huh.its a sooner or later kinda thing.
troublesomePOK: ahaa eh change to poRky please.tsktsk.what naggy.
jillian: OMG NO JILLIAN GIAM.its god damn gross please.
hairy: ahahha wth hairy.anyways.THANK YOU! I SAW MY NAME FIRST UP ON THAT WHOLE CHUNK OF FRIENDS!! wahha =D ahah holy peipei..

2006-11-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH.YES!
ITS OVER.
say bye to pw and hi to that moutain of homework.
ahh whatever.choir's tom.
we are gonna kick __'s ass.thats it.
COME ON! GO TPJCHOIR! -.-

~~andtonight,somehowsomewhat.ithinkivelost,~~ ~~you.~~

to act and damn the consequences.
yea yea.说得容易做到难。
whatever whtaever whatever.
not for the sake of someone else.
omg i need to say NO TO EMO.
its a stupid random post.damn.

2006-11-10T01:18:00.000+08:00

omg people.
TOM'S THE DAY.
yes just get it over and done with it.

oh ya, people catch PRESTIGE please.
its damn nice and according to that troublesomePOK, its ~~fucking~~ X4 nice.

不知你在那儿，
不知你在想什么，
更不知你心早已去不？

2006-11-09T13:32:00.000+08:00

NOT FOR THE SAKE OF SOMEONE ELSE.

yes hairy you heard me.

ahaa chatting with hairy over relationship issues has never failed to tickle me.his many painful attempts to make me understand or realise.many of which somewhat made much sense to me,i dont know why nor how.ahha.bottom line is, i thank you hairy for all the scoldings and er ~~yellings~~.haa I LOVE YOU HAIRY (okay and now he must be thinking ive offically gone nuts.) oh wells,i dont know. falling in and out or love has always been MY forte. something i reckon no one will ever want to be good at.and now,i dont even know if it stil feels the same..

The five rules of happiness states..

1) Free your heart from hatred.
2) Free your mind from worries.
3) Live simply.
4) Give more.
5) Expect less.

aha im supposed to chant this and get it into my head.man point 4 and 5.rahh i can do it!. love's a verb not a feeling.

loving for his or her own sake..

2006-11-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

OMG DAMN YOU TERRYTANDEJIANG.

you are so gonna get your ass kicked this sat.

http://www.winterrowd.com/illusions/

people,view this at your own ~~risk~~.

aha yes.and thats hairy's broken ankle,

in my nose.

2006-11-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

算了

就让他来决定吧。

dejiang: ha.its damn funny pleaseeee.omg faints.

kelly: ayes.you are getting preettier too babe!.haa eh heh that body clock was refering to some troublesomePOK.aint you yeahh.

troublesomePOK: haa whatever man.B&JS!!!!

louis: har lou.what are you talking about eh?what swan? eh?

POOVAN: OMG DARLING.EH YOU YOU I MISS YOU TOO CAN.im so counting down to 20 nov as well.ahhaa.i love you sexayy!

2006-11-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

RAHHH.

jo-the-lioness.

heh.

无奈。

I don't understand

Your love is so cold

It's always me that's reaching out

For your hand

And I've always dreamed

That love would be effortless

Like a petal fallin' to the ground

A dreamer followin' his dream

Where is your heart?'

Cause I ~~don't~~ really feel you

2006-11-06T11:41:00.000+08:00

EEEKS.

'hi there...........I just want to tell you that your beautiful smile and sweet looking had attracted me from a distance and capture my attention....I was just wondering that if you are interested tohave discreet scandal or flings cos really can't resist but to fall into you.........I am really interested in this matter and hope that you will give a thoughts......I hope to see your reply very soon......'

i got totally grossed out by this.
its like a..fling invitation.
according to hairy.

omg.AM I SUCH AN EASY TARGET?.
i swear i dont wana bump into this retarded piece of %$^& on the streets or else ill most probably give him two tight slaps on the face, and maybe the balls as well and make sure he kneel down in pain and ask for forgiveness. okay,maybe not cause er i reckon i'll just run away and hide.

bahhh whatever.DESPERADO.

// x) can my birthday just don't come. says:
I WANT TO SPEND MY BIRTHDY WIT GREAT FRIENDS LIKE JOANNE! =D eh aww heh hairy.

2006-11-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

okay so, the result of rehearsing in my heels.
A ~~BARBARIC~~ BLISTER.
omg.just two hours.
mann,tell me how im gonna survive the whole show.
and yes,sad to say.

drama's getting on my NERVES.
and im having second thoughts on having kids.eh wait,hell no.i AM gonna have kids.MANY of them.eh heh..

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

rahh im too lazy to reply on my tagboard.so..

troublesomePOK:aha whatever to you poky.please go get a job so you can treat me to b&js.
jillian:ahha yeah.LETS DO ECONS TOGETHER.and shit i think i lost that stupid stack of notes already.
dejiang: thanks dude :) wanna be my first student?ahaha
ssk: ahaa eh handsome please go get a haircut.its like a BUSH now.tsk tsk.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUIS!

2006-11-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

ahahahaa.
i stil cant believe this.

I PASS MY GRADE 8 EXAM!!!
ahah eh any takers for being my first student?

ha.im god damn tired now.
chinese was alright i guess.
hope for the best,expect the worst.

andiwonderif3rdjunestillringsabelltoyoudearest.
ahh tell me if this love or ~~not~~.

2006-11-02T17:05:00.000+08:00

of all things,

i lost my entry proof.
i lost my entry proof!
I LOST THAT BLOOODY PIECE OF PAPER!

omgomgomg.
darndarndarn.
im gonna cross my fingers that it hasnt gone down the chute yet.

RAHH.fast forward to 10nov NOW please.

2006-11-01T18:14:00.000+08:00

omg.

dont come smsing me when you told me i will no longer be on your contact list.dont come talking to me as though everything's the same when its not.dont come showing me the ~~bloodydean~~ attitude when all i ask is a simple why.and dont come questioning me as though im the one at fault,the unreasonable one.

omg just for once,
face it wont you.
stop avoiding.
and blooody stop contradicting your goddamn self.

argh whatever.you aint gonna see this anyway.
so i aint gonna be bothered.

on a lighter note, im gonna meet janson teh 青龙 for a drink of something laters.cant wait to start ranting at him.thanks for always being there for me bigbigbigbrother =)

2006-10-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

And how can you mend a broken heart?

How can you stop the rain from falling down?

How can you stop the sun from shining?

What makes the world go round?

How can you mend this broken man?

How can a loser ever win?

Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again

the past does haunts,

but what matters is now.

~~andsometimesijustwishihavethcourageandalltosaygoodbye.~~

2006-10-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

ahh i cant wait for 10 NOV.
when all the chinese As, I&R and OP will be all over.
and yes the catching up with the funny and non-sensical people again =))

and yes,

MUSHROOM CHIA WEILING.

YOU BETTER TURN UP THIS TIME ROUNND.

'once a barbarian, always an barbarian..'

2006-10-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

blogger died on me last night.
thank god its back tonight.

oh wells,
i refuse to guess anymore.
just say it in my face.
and who knows, it may turn out for the better =)

and yes, drama's sucking the little energy i have left.
may it come and go soon.
cause one thing for sure,
i am going nuts.

And we can pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Cant you see cant you see,
You gotta wake up slow.

troublesomePOK:ah eh you should change to slowPOK yeah.and please what kiings or walls.faints.

2006-10-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

VIVO'S GOD DAMN HUGE.

okay its not TWENTY FIVE times bigger than ngee ann city but its somewhere FIVE times of it.
i walked till my legs gave way and still im not done with every shop of there.
ahha im so going back there again!
eh any takers?

yeah so off we went shopping for lam's present.

oh godd, we sure did got lotsa stares back there.

HEH.geesh

random pic of muthu liang.aha look at that retarded face of his.
haha.lastly, batiti.

godd,its been a real long time ive been out with this people.ahh how i miss those times back in dunman.the bunch of funny and non-sensical people.

=))

and my dearest came asking me,

zidan:jiejie, do you mind me asking a personal question?
me: eh yea?
zidan: ummm,do you use pad or tampon?

HAHAHAH.omg.that tickled me for sure.
but oh wells it all turn out me being e noob one asking everything about tampons and all.oh man..

and yes im very irritated by my tagboard.cant tag for nuts.
shall do the replying here then.

troublesomePOK: eh excuse me pok.no such thing yeah.ben&jerrys STILL.
bryan:eh you you another one.tsk.alrights then.MAY YOU HAVE AN OUTBREAK like.hmm TOMORROW =)
jillian:ayes jill drink more then.and sleep more.and yes.you better EAT.

ahh damn op op op..

2006-10-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

crap.chinese As are just ONE WEEK away.
i need to start reading those long chapts again
before i see myself crying like a mad bitch next year when i recieve my results.

get it over and done with it.

~~whatever to you my friend.~~~~i do not appreciate being pangsed like that.~~

2006-10-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

For once just let me say this.

~~FUCK PW~~

im god damn sick of this already

and i just cant wait for all this shit to over.

im gonna snap at anyone who comes near me.

so people,BACK OFF.

and yes hell with you selfish bastard,

i dont like you.

ahh ,im feeling much better now.

2006-10-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

and yes,hell with pw.
argh.

2006-10-25T02:58:00.000+08:00

~~now that i know how much you mean to me,~~
everything just seems to be much clearer.
andiwonderifyoufeelthesame

2006-10-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

everything just seems so familiar.
a little too familiar and
~~its scaring the shit out of me.~~

bahhh.ive made a mistake once.
and i swear DO NOT wana make it again.
rahh whatever whatever whatever.

dude,
'dont say you love me..when you dont even know me.'

and yes,im praying hard that sweet's gonna stay for
~~我不想我们之间就这么完了。~~

2006-10-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

Wild horses i wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind ,
Ill run free too wish i could
recklessly love like i'm longing too
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses

I see the girl i wanna be
Riding bareback carefree along the shore
if only that someone was me
jumping head first
headlong without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
how i wish it could be that easy
But fear surronds me like a fence
I wanna break free

all i want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared
Recklessly abandoning myself before you

I wanna open up my heart
telling you how i feel.

its him,not you joanne.

2006-10-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

rah whatever.
whatever whatever whatever.
theres just too much going though my head now.

~~imeannothingdoi?~~

NTU Student survey - FUnny comments

'is mostache the source of your knowledge?
if it is, please do not set the questions so difficult
cause most of us dont have moustache.'
AHAHAHA

'roses are red,violets are blue.
the lesser your hair,
the sexier you get.'
WAHAHAHA.

omg,i swear its freaking hilarious.
at least it made me feel better.
so much better =) thanks laochen.

~~stop being such an ass wont you.and dont try to vent your anger on me when im just trying to be concern over here alrights.~~